This is the 4002nd post at The Music Salon and I have enjoyed the project enormously. Though I'm not posting much these days, I don't think the journey is quite over.
This is going to be one of those utterly uncategorizable posts I put up every now and then. Synchronicity is one of those odd ideas that one only runs into with Carl Jung, The Police and. well, me this week.
First of all, I've been looking for some light reading to take to bed at night. I'm sleepy so I wanted something that didn't require following a plot or characters or anything. Then I remembered the Portuguese author Fernando Pessoa (1888 - 1935), who was a very gifted and very strange writer who wrote, among many other things The Book of Disquiet a "factless autobiography." Here is a sample:
I never tried to be anything other than a dreamer. I never paid any attention to people who told me to go out and live. I belonged always to whatever was far from me and to whatever I could never be. To me, anything that was not mine, however base, always seemed full of poetry. The only thing I ever loved was pure nothingness. I only ever desired what was beyond my imaginings. All I ever asked of life was that it should pass me by without my even noticing it. Of love I demanded only that it never be anything more than a distant dream. In my own inner landscapes, all of them unreal, it was always the faraway that attracted me, and the blurred outlines of aqueducts, almost lost in the distance of my dream landscapes, imposed a dreamy sweetness on other parts of the landscape, a sweetness that enabled me to love them.
I find that the perfect thing to read in bed at night.
Another synchronicity is that I have been reading Spinoza (1632 - 1677) lately. He was of Portuguese Jewish descent and his family moved to Holland in the 16th century. His views were so unorthodox that he was banished from the Jewish community when he was twenty-four. He believed that Nature and God were the same thing. God comprises in himself all reality. Last year I read his Ethics, using a geometrical method, and I just finished the chapters on him in Copleston's History of Philosophy. Another very strange fellow.
Finally, I stumbled across a Portuguese song. I put it up a few days ago, but I want to put it up again. It seems to me that all Portuguese music is sad, but this song seems like an islet of sadness floating on a great, deep ocean of sadness.