It didn't seem so then because of my doubts about getting a job in the field afterwards, but my time as a doctoral candidate in musicology at McGill University in Montreal was a very happy time in my life. It was a time of intellectual and aesthetic exploration unconstrained by economic factors. I had a full scholarship which paid for tuition and I was given employment in the form of teaching courses to non-music majors.
I did leave before writing a dissertation for other things, but I really enjoyed the seminars. For me education is about learning, not about certification. A number of years ago I was asked to give some pre-concert lectures in our local chamber series, one on Chopin and I realized that my many years at university had actually taught me almost nothing about Chopin except for brief discussion in a 19th century music history course. So I undertook to give myself a graduate seminar in Chopin based on ones I had at McGill on DuFay, Shostakovich and comic opera. It was great fun and I think the talk was successful. But the big reward was that I discovered I could give myself a course in anything I wanted.
Right now I am mostly through giving myself a course in Ludwig Wittgenstein. I first tried to read the Philosophical Investigations many years ago (fifty to be exact!) with no discernible success. Subsequently I have taken a couple of runs at the Tractatus Logic-Philosophicus with even less success. But my complete lack of comprehension has actually led me to want to try harder and last year I read the whole of the Investigations coming away with an understanding of perhaps, oh, 4 or 5% of the text. Then I decided to give it a more serious try and read the Tractatus again in a couple of different translations and watched some videos on it by a Dutch professor. Ok, faint inklings. So I just finished Anscombe's introduction and I'm reading Hülster's introduction which is actually quite clear. Then I think I will read the Tractatus again. After that I will read the Routledge Guidebook to the Investigations and maybe try to write a summary. Oh, and I have also been reading the Monk biography of Wittgenstein which is pretty mind-boggling in itself.
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| My Wittgenstein shelf |
And here is that biography:
What has this to do with music? Well, there is a potential connection. I've been chewing over my thoughts on the problem of musical structure and I think that Wittgenstein's picture theory about the representation of reality could actually be very helpful. I talked about the problem in this post: Musical "Structure" in which I made the point that music does not have "structure" which is a spatial concept, rather it has "flow," which is a temporal concept. In any case, once I have finished my Wittgenstein seminar I will return to the problem, with, I hope, more intellectual tools to bring to the table.
Some listening: Henri Dutilleux, The Shadows of Time.
My next seminar will be on the Mozart operas for which I will be reading Charles Osborne's book The Complete Operas of Mozart. I also have the marvelous box of DVDs of the complete productions at Salzburg in 2006:






